dream #1: it's getting hot and heavy with someone i don't recognize. Suddenly, before the great act, he gets up and walks out the door, mumbling about sin in the lord's eyes or something. he leaves me alone (and rather unsatisfied). i'm offended at first, but then i become aware that there is someone else in the house and headed my way right now. so i wait.
dream #2: I emerge from what feels like months of cloudiness. My daughter is there. she is young, just old enough to start crawling. I carry her everywhere with me, talking to her, making faces, laughing at her smile and giant dark eyes. My mother's entire family is there, my aunts and uncles, my grandmother... i remember the way they looked at me with their gentle, knowing smiles, watching the way a i doted on her and fussed over her. Near the end of the dream I started becoming conscious and the worries started filtering into my dream- what if i can't afford it? where can i live now? what will happen? But when I look at my daughter, with her toffee-colored skin and black curly hair as she motors her way across the carpet and pulls herself triumphantly to her feet using a table for support, i am flooded with relief. anything is worth it, for her.
About Me
- Elaine
- I'm an artist, alchemist, witch, writer, lucid dreamer, librarian, sister, daughter, recluse, watcher and note-taker, goof-off, clairvoyant-in-study and mostly still a mystery to myself.